what more are you looking for?

I don't know who I'm talking to anymore because I'm about 75% sure no one reads this but me but I guess if this is the thing that reduces humanity to a pile of ash then I guess I'll need some kind of log.

This has been a really, really weird day.

I feel out of the loop and unnecessary because I've been in a Disney bubble the past few days and at noon today they had a Webex saying they're slashing our clinic in two. 50% stays here and 50% goes where is needed until this calms down. Which means hospitals. Which no one wants to go to. If you don't opt to 'deploy' which is their word for it, you use up all your paid time off and then you'd better hope Trump takes care of you. I have a strong feeling they'll deploy me, despite my seniority. I don't know why, I just do. I haven't been at the front line of this thing and I've been feeling like I'm falling out of favor, though that could be my paranoia talking. How was I supposed to know the entire world would crumble while I was at Disney?

My boss just texted me saying if we don't get a call about redeployment, show up at regular time on Monday. Great. More anxiety. I hate waiting for phone calls.

I know I need to make groceries but I'm thinking about going home and taking careful stock of things and then going super early tomorrow so that maybe they'll have more options. I have food for tonight, and so does Jack. I would like to stop and get another fan, though.

I need some serious quiet time tonight. Some Jack, some Grey's Anatomy, no screaming kid or frustrated parents, snacks, and my dog, if he hasn't died from the heat by now, which he hasn't, judging from my camera.

God I hope it rains tonight and cools off my apartment

Rae