What I’d do

Last day of tech job.

I told my inner idiot to stop waiting. Whatever is coming is not going to when I am waiting for it. It always happens when I’m not expecting it. I don’t even know why my instincts keep telling me that it’s near, because it’s not. I don’t know if it’s wishful thinking or dread. Every emotion looks like that pointless iOS emoji that resembles a box of gray. Fog. That’s what the inside of my brain looks like.

I have to get my shit together before Monday. Evidently I have a letter of merit at work which I have to go get today. I‘m not altogether sure why I have another merit letter but I’m not complaining. My stupid tire has another nail in it, hopefully I can get it fixed tomorrow on my way to Elmwood to return my laptop. I feel as if I could sleep for years. I kind of want to. After tubing there must be a change. I have to stop being this person.

Rae