read this one first.

Yesterday, I did something motivated by stress, fear, and guilt, and I may have had my reasons but I think there was a better way of handling it, and certainly called for a better sense of timing. I wrote a long post last night exploring my feelings on how everything was reciprocated, but even then I got a little stringent, so I drafted the post until I can sit down and really work things out in my head.

There's a lot I'm sorry for and a lot I'm not sorry for, and they're all extremely tangled up in each other right now. I had an unexpected sticker shock when I was told it would cost an additional $175 for Jack's vaccinations, and though it's not an excuse, I should have thought before I spoke and not fired off from a place where I was worried about him and the cost, lack of sleep, and everything else on my mind. But what I am definitely sorry for is how I handled yesterday, and for shooting off at the hip. If my apology can't be accepted, well, I made my bed, I'll lie in it.

That being said-

No matter how ill-timed and poorly conceived it was, how it was received, I think, was also dealt with in defensive anger, which was warranted, but I think we've both made the mistake of saying things we can't come back from wayyyyy too many times, and I don't know about you, but I am not eager to continue that tradition.

I hope you can accept my apology for how I approached it yesterday, but if you can't, well, that's how it is.

-Rae

PS: Jack is doing fine. Ate and drank last night, no yelping or screaming, rested easy the whole night.