I won't walk out until you know...

Enter another useless journal entry.

Reading over my old entries for the project, I fall so flat when I write in here. It's always just what I'm doing, not what I'm feeling. I don't know how I'm feeling. For the past few months all I do is manage my physical health, and not too well, obviously. Everything seems like it's in a holding pattern. When you don't feel good, only the essentials gets worried about. You do what you have to do, no matter how shitty you feel.

Anyhoozles.

Jack is back home from a seven day vacation at his Dad's, where he ate like a king. He returns to me, doesn't want to eat, and throws up all Monday morning until I tell him to cut the shit.

This past weekend was Derek and Brittany's Housewarming/Derek's birthday celebration. Scott came on Friday and we started Cobra Kai. On Saturday I did my best to try and relax, though it went against the grain to do that. Watched Elvis until it was time to get ready to go. Stopped at Walmart to get ice. We got there early to snag good parking and hung out with Brit, Shayna, Jeremy, and Sidney. It took awhile for the rest of the gang to show up, but show up they did, and holy shit we are some loud sons of bitches. Damn good fucking party. Adam brought his meat for everyone to nibble on. There was an awesome chocolate ganache cake with strawberries. Julian nearly raped Sidney over his chocolate chip cookies. The pictures are gold, even though I was snapping away the entire night and only got 190, which is low for me. I kept escaping to go to Brittany's tub for some quiet, my leg has been numb since I've got out of the hospital, and it was starting to hurt. Derek got the DarkSaber, so there was some lightsaber duels and then some lightsaber molestations occurring. It got so loud that when Sam showed up, he had to hide in the pantry because it was that jarring. Even Glenn and Sean had to bow out, and I've never known those two to do that. In attendance were: Derek, Brittany, Nicole, myself, Scott, Glenn, Derek, Cody, Sean, Ahri, Adam, Leah, Sam, Stacie, Maddie, Maddie's friend Eric, Derek's friend Todd, Jeremy, Sidney, Derek's kids Briallen & Julian, our Julian, and Shayna. The girls stayed downstairs while the guys retired up to play some games, but by 12, 12:30, we were all worn out. I was almost falling asleep in Brittany's tub. Left. Came home. Passed the fuck out.

On Sunday, lounged around, watched the rest of Elvis, started Cobra Kai until a scene in Cobra Kai made us want Olive Garden, so we called up Brit, Derek, and Sidney and got them to meet us there for some lunch. After, we all went to Target where Brittany tortured herself with Halloween decorations. Said goodbye. Came home. Work was a total bitch today.

Brad is a Dad! Winter has arrived. They are sticking in their own little bubble for now, which is understandable. I can't wait to meet her. I can't believe he's a Dad. The thought is lovely, but at the same time, just the tiniest bit bittersweet. It has been a very long ride.

This weekend is the last weekend we have before shit starts kicking off, so I guess I'm going to go to Mom's. Then Beignet Fest. Then Battle for the Paddle, Food Truck fest, and then my birthday weekend.

May try to go see Clerks III this week, depends on $ and how I feel.

Fuck I'm boring.