I’ll see you on the other side

I’m not sure if it’s because my thyroid is off (I’m pretty sure this is it) or there’s something else at play here, but I feel pretty rough tonight. I feel like there’s very little point to things. I feel invisible, and I don’t trust anything that I write or post or think. I can’t even talk to people in a virtual chat room without feeling like the world‘s biggest fucking idiot. I keep deleting statuses. Deep down in my brain I keep scolding myself for it, because why the fuck should I censor myself? I want to go in the cave and not come out for a month, but I know I can’t do it. I can’t go in there at all for any stretch of time because I know I won’t come back out.

Come on brain, get it together, you big pink turd.