Every new beginning...

Forcing myself to write this, if only for the fact that every day I look at my picture collection and try to slap it into some semblance of order and all I have to go on is memory and the hope that I wrote about the event in my LJ. Trying to spare Future Rae some headaches.

Been a busy few weeks.

On the 5th, I dragged my ass to Slidell, where they were having the Food Truck Festival. I wish I wouldn't have had to go alone but I needed some private time and everyone was busy. I got Trash Grits (grits with pork and an egg and sriracha) and then I was in a very rare adventurous mood, so I tried the PBJ burger, and oh my god, yes daddy. After that I had a sweet tooth so I got some beignets with bacon and maple syrup. Maple syrup really isn't my thing, but damn it was good. I got Scott a cheesesteak and then went home.

That night, Scott and Ms. Ellen and I went to go watch Batman at the Kenner theatre. It was really good, but their sound was horrible and we could barely hear most of it, which sucked. It wasn't just me being deaf either. Everyone felt the same.

That following Friday, I worked as usual, but Sidney came over to try and recover some of my fucked up discs, which he was unfortunately unable to do, but I give him this, he really tried his best. Friday seemed to take forever, and at the end of my workday, he and I decided to go pick up Bryan so we could all go to Westwego for a Game Night hosted by Adam and Shayna. Ran to get Bryan, stopped at Winn Dixie to get some provisions, and then got on the road. The second we got back on 90, a bucket overturned on us. Right before we got to Adam's Mom's house, our phones went off with a tornado warning. Thank God she was just around the corner. She has a really awesome house. Adam made stuffed burgers and we all chowed down and visited with Brittany (Derek was playing games, as usual) and Scott got there and we all just shot the shit for awhile. Scott played a game or two but sooner or later the power went out and then I decided to call it a night. I left Bryan and Scott there so they could visit more and came back and took a bath and whatnot.

Bought Kingdom Hearts for Switch. My dumb ass bought the Cloud version, which I'm pissed about, but it's fun playing it again. I really want to get to KH2. The next morning, Bryan wanted to go to Gamestop to get Elden Ring. The one in Chateau didn't have it, so we tried Target, and it wasn't there, so we called the one on Vets who said they had one left, so we shot over there and he got what he wanted, then went to Winn Dixie, then to the Hobby Shop to get Bryan a goddamn Gundam, then Walmart, to get provisions for stuffed burgers. Video games. Sleep.

The next day we had made arrangements to chill with Derek and Brittany and Sidney. Sidney wanted to go to Lakelawn (not the one I go to) to visit his grandpa. Got the boys out of bed, got there before them, they showed up, we walked around, Brittany taking a million pictures as usual. I had brought my Rebel (goddamn I love that camera) and snapped some. I wanted to show them Anne Rice's tomb so we went down the road to Metairie and had a really great time driving around and showing them stuff. It was a lot of fun. We even found an open tomb and it looked like there were bone fragments in it. After that we went to Trader Joes, where we bought ALL the things, then Golden City, where Bryan loaded up with ramen and I got a cute cup with an anime girl holding a camera. We were really hungry, so we went to Olive Garden in Kenner, which was a lot of fun. Derek and Brit were holding a Movie Night at the hotel, so we made plans to go over there after we went back to the apartment and chilled a bit. Got in our PJs and went to go pick up Sidney from Michelle's, where he was fixing her computer. Whole Foods, then Total Wine, then off to Elmwood, where everyone wanted ice cream (bleh) and then finally to Derek and Brit's hotel. We watched Turning Red (basically a Pixar movie explaining girl's periods to them) and then started on some Encanto before some shit went down at Brit's work and it was late so we said goodnight. On the way out, we saw Chewy, which was kind of weird. Great day, lots of fun, and Brit even said they wanted to do it again.

The next day was Nanny's birthday, so after work, Bryan and I went to Chili's on Vets. We were supposed to go to Flamingo A Go Go, but my family isn't vaccinated and neither is Bryan, so we couldn't, which at first I was relieved about, because going to NOLA on a Monday at Rush Hour is not fun, plus going to NOLA at all right now makes me nervous. Well, there was almost no one in there and they made us wait 30 minutes for a table, and I was praying they'd seat us before Mom showed up and Karen'd the fuck out of the place. Everyone showed up (Dav was late) and then we got sat and from one end to the other, the service just kept getting worse and worse. I've been a waitress, and I'm generally pretty good with being patient and not being a total asshole, but Mom and Nanny have no such compunctions. Our waiter was all business and doing like 3 jobs. Sooner or later even I got antsy, took us forever to get out of there, it was a fucking nightmare. Bryan got a gift card out of it. After that everyone wanted ice cream and Mom and Nanny and Dav wanted to go gamble, so Riley came with Bryan and I. Stopped at Baskin Robbins and poor Bryan got fucked again because the asshole at the window claimed he never heard his order. Dropped Riley off. Came home. Sleep.

I had my post APE discussion on Friday and both of my bosses said I was doing a great job, but I needed to engage more with my teammates. I'm not the most social person and I don't see the point in bringing up things in a meeting that they are just going to disregard, but I just nodded and said okay. I'm pleased to hear that I'm on point. I've been kicking serious ass at work, too.

We wanted to go to the Food Truck Friday in Mandeville that night. Mom was supposed to come but she had a lot of stuff going down house wise so after Scott got off, we all high tailed it to Mandeville. When I hear 'food trucks', I think multiple. Not two. TWO. I did get to try shrimp étouffée fries, which were really good, but we said fuck this and went down the road to Jersey Mikes, weeeee it was deliciousness, as Brittany would say. Everything on the Northshore shuts down at 6-7 so we went back across the goddamn Causeway AGAIN and then stopped at Total Wine, where I finally got some fucking lambic. Home. Bath. Video games. Sleep.

Next morning I took Bryan home early because I needed some Rae time. Came back and cleaned up a few things, then went to At Home where I spent way too much fucking money buying stuff to redo my makeup center. Don't watch restocking videos before you to go to bed. I was up until 3am thinking about that shit. Went to Target. Went to Walmart. Came home. More cleaning. More reorganizing. Video games. Baths. Sleep.

This morning I made myself lounge around. Baths. Breakfast. I finally got ALL OF MY PICTURES TAGGED ON THE NEW iMAC. GOD DAMN THAT TOOK FOREVER. Now I just have a lot of random pictures that I need to do research on, which is a fucking nightmare. I can't wait until I can update my portable HD and update Satori, though I'm having one of my 'fuck Satori' moments. It's a lot of work and no one visits but it's hard to get annoyed because I know people have lives. Just feels like work when no one looks at it. Thank God for Brit. Made a new banner for Satori FB group.

Got bored and decided to go visit my Granny. Had a nice long visit with her, then stopped at Mom and Dad's to get a package I mistakenly sent to them, then came home and ate the last of my JM sandwich in the tub and been playing KH for awhile.

Whew. I'm tired from typing all that.

I don't talk about my emotions much in here because I mostly keep myself so busy that I don't have time/energy to get all philosophical, but I guess things could be worse. The uncertainty about my living situation in a few months makes me sick if I think about it too much. Sometimes I look around at the little home I made for myself and part of me doesn't want to leave, but when I go to other people's houses I get super depressed because I'll probably never own a home of my own. Fucking world is going insane.

In other news I got a laminating machine and I have been laminating EVERYTHING

Rae