Entre Nous

Haven't been writing lately. That shit from work definitely took some wind out of my sails. Even when I'm home I'm watching myself do normal things and thinking (without being able to stop myself) "well, they can't say shit about me doing this." I know that's ridiculous.

Anyway, fuck all that shit. Can't win over there.

MD switched my meds back to synthroid so it feels like I'm back on that bungee again. I've been kind of busy this weekend what with Riley's party. On Friday there was some interfamily drama that was incredibly ridiculous and petty. Autum nearly had a nervous breakdown. I came home and did some things and then met her & Lauren at Target. Then we went back to her apartment and moved boxes and cleaned. Came home and passed out. Was supposed to be at her apartment at 11, but she texted me early cause she needed help, so I took a shower and packed up the car and went over there. Lugging that goddamn table down three flights of stairs in the heat was NOT FUN, plus I had like three bags and a crockpot full of meatballs. Went to Autum's, hung decorations with Lauren, cleaned cleaned cleaned, ran to Walmart and Walgreens with Autum for last minute stuff. For a minute there it didn't look like we were going to get it done in time, but by the time people started arriving, we were just finishing getting ourselves ready. We were waiting for people to start shit, but no one did, even though some people made a point of ignoring us, which was fine. I'm not losing any sleep over it.

It was fun, food was good-jambalaya, meatballs, sandwiches, chips, dip, fresh fruit. The kid made out like a bandit, as usual. After doing cake and presents we all went out to the pool and swam, which was very refreshing. Sid showed up-Riley specifically asked for him to come, which I thought was sweet. We all drank Jack and alcoholic freezepops. I left most of my shit over there, like my table and ice chest-by the time 5 rolled around I was dead inside. Said good bye to everyone, packed up some of my shit, and came home. Took a bath and laid around and watched TV. The excitement from the day wore off and I felt pretty goddamn low, though I know it's because of my meds. Like, watching "The Notebook" (ew) and crying, it was so bad. On the other hand,I slept so hard that my body cracked like a bunch of glowsticks when I woke up. Went to Target and now I'm about to do pictures. I feel a little better.

Next weekend we've got a 2nd & Charles day planned, and Lacey is spending the night here on Saturday. There's mutterings of a Biloxi trip but I guess that depends on how the whole covid thing is going. Finally booked a haircut for Jack next weekend, need oil change now. Might go that after I drop him off.

Read Here To Stay again, that book always centers me. Ready Player Two comes out in November-I CANNOT WAIT.

I need to write more, but I have nothing new to say.

Rae