Bye & Bye

Nothing really to say.

The chemistry of my brain has been changing so rapidly that it feels akin to a bungee jump. I drop, drop, drop, the line slackens, I hover, I plunge, I rocket upwards. Most of the time it's stuck in the slacken, and in the middle of all of that nauseating up and down I can find nothing to land on. Nothing that tells me that wherever I fall, it will be true, and real, and right.

Right now is not the time to make any concrete decisions, but I am beginning to feel as if I am never, ever going to trust myself anymore.