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Biloxi trip was fun.

Got in a small fender bender Friday, except that it didn't do any damage. Didn't hook the guy up since everything was okay and I didn't feel like having my insurance skyrocket. Got a new sheet set for my bed so the damn covers would stop slipping off. Made groceries. Went and saw Lacey's new apartment on Saturday, very nice, stopped by Mom's, took a ride later on with Scott to go to Gamestop so he could get a lightsaber. Left for Biloxi early Sunday, got there around 11, went swimming, ate a nice club sandwich (The Beau stopped offering their cuban...but the club was pretty good) went back to the room to relax, went to Sharkheads, went back to hotel, swam again, then went to dinner at Half Shell for Scott's birthday. The shrimp alfredo was incredible, so heavy that I could barely finish my favorite cajun potatoes and cheddar grits, and then we ate chocolate cake for dessert and fat-shamed ourselves back to the hotel. The bed at the Beau is ridiculous.

Woke up Sunday, checked out, went to Books a Million (I bought a screaming goat! Scott was not pleased) and then to the outlet where that Play & Talk store is (what an awesome place) and then we left and ate at Rotolo's on the way back. Very nice weekend, even with the fender bender.

This weekend I'm probably going to visit my grandma and then go over to Lacey's new place so we can go shopping for her to decorate. Gonna go try out Boxlunch in Baton Rouge.

I thought I was sure about what I was going to do, but now I don't know. Of course, that'll probably change tomorrow. Nothing changes unless you push it in that direction, even though what I'm thinking of doing seems selfish and I keep on rethinking it, but sometimes you just have to be selfish. You can only yell for help so many times before you decide you have to save yourself.

I don't know if everything I know about love is wrong, or if I'm even doing it correctly, but I have to get to a place where I can be realistic about it. I'm too old for this romantic idealism and this ridiculous standard I've created.

However, that doesn't mean I have to settle for less.

-Rae