Nutshell

Was going to go out Friday but I got a weird vibe so I didn’t. Glad I didn’t. Tired of being reckless. It’s just as well. I don’t have time to play fucking guessing games anymore. I did go out, but not in that way. Got to eat those awesome crystal sauce onion rings again, and I got to try a Mardi Gras shake, which was okay. Went shopping with Lacey for when she moves out. Was fun. Took Jell-O shots in the parking lot at At Home at 10am. Our class knows no bounds. Scott and Brad and Liz were here on Friday night, Scott trying to get me and Liz into Magic, which I’ll try, but due to level of complication and my very poor attention span, I’m not sure how that’s going to go. He also showed me the LEGO Star Wars game, which was cute. Selling some stuff to make $ so I can pay off some debts and sock away $ to go to Disneyworld, plus things coming up soon, like tubing and Aaron Lewis and Big Easy. Did a few Facebook Marketplace transactions, which all went well-I still have my kidneys, so it worked out. Had to go to LaPlace for one. Hmm. I keep wondering if this hole inside of me is temporary or if it’s always going to be there. To quote Dean Lewis-nothing heals the past like time. Right now there’s no male I trust completely with my heart, except the one I invented in my imagination. Which is healthy...to a point. Coming very near to that point. One day I’m not going to write in here so much anymore. Not sure when that will be. I force myself to do it 95% of the time so I can clean my brain out. Guess we’ll see. Still really really really want to delete certain persons from my FB but not really looking forward to the possible hissy fit that may arise. Starting to really bug me, though. Oh well. Logic tree. Maturity. Stuff like that. I guess. Tomato soup. Laundry. Gone With the Wind.