forget

Only going to say this once-

If people want to say shit to my face and then say different shit behind my back, let them.

If they want to look me in the eye and swear they're honest and true and in the next moment go and malign me to someone else, someone who I've always known I can't trust as far as I can throw them, that's fine. Let them. Go right ahead.

If people want to think I'm fucking stupid and don't know what goes on behind my back, let them. Let them think I'm fucking stupid. I got a lot of rope to dole out, so keep taking some, but you won't need much to hang yourself.

There's no word for how fucking angry, disappointed, and hurt I am. Every time I have or will look at this person in the face, I'm going to feel sick. And every time they say I can trust them, I will do anything but. And when the time is right, when I feel like I'm not going to explode, but I am going to let it be known that they never fucking fooled me. Not for a goddamn second. Timing. It's everything.

There is confiding in someone, and then there's shit-talking.

But you know what?

I don't have time to deal with this fucking bullshit.

I have to go and be happy, which I am very much capable of doing, contrary to certain opinion.