feet fail me not

Starting to get super freaked out about Disney.

I'm excited, but I am worried about $, Universal, and most of all, $.

It sounds terrible but I wish it were here so I can go ahead and do it and stop it from hanging over my head. I'm very happy and grateful we're going, it's just the fact that it's swinging like a pendulum over my life and I can't see around it or even know how things are going to go. Top it all of with Christmas and con and everything else and I'm about to have a nervous breakdown. I have to keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time. It feels like there's so much time between Disney and now that anything could happen, and I don't like all of that slack time in between.

I'm writing again which makes me very happy but at the same time it's very hard to focus, so I've been popping B12's every morning. I had my APE yesterday (annual performance review thing) and it went very well so at least work is okay. They hired a new front desk girl but she doesn't start till Dec 9. The techs have been helping me a lot and Kayla has been very supportive and awesome and I'm not as overwhelmed as I was afraid I would be.

I got off my BC and my appetite dropped like a stone but goddamn am I hormonal as fuck.

Tomorrow I'm doing a photo shoot with Lacey's mom for her work and then we're going to eat afterward at Chili's. Dani is down from Lafayette so I'm gonna see what we can figure out to do, though I kind of want to take some more pictures, even though I don't know if Lacey will want to. We will have to play it by ear. I am taking care of Optimus all next week while Sid is in G-burg, so I will have to bring my crockpot over there and make my meatballs for our work Thanksgiving potluck.

We are going to Saltgrass for Thanksgiving, looking forward to steak and mashed potatoes and not having to work. That weekend is Renfaire so I probably will bring Op back to my place so I don't have to go back and forth to LaPlace, maybe just drop him off on our way to Hammond Sunday morning. I don't know, I have to figure out this week first. My stupid brain wants to do everything at fucking once and it's driving me goddamn batty. The more I try to figure it out the more it all gets snarled up, so I'm trying not to think about it.

In other news, I am reading a lovely little book named Hitler and I found out that his nickname from back in the 1920's is also the nickname of the central character of my book, so that's kind of disheartening.

I have to keep my head above water.

-Rae